Jess

Jess?
 
I found some pictures. Pictures of you.
Not the you I once knew. Gone now, the mass of black curls. Gone, the sharp cheekbones women whispered about, the slanted green eyes that pierced so much they frightened people. Gone now the tiny frame of muscle that had lifted me high and twirled with such frenzy as [...]

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Not Your Baby

I’m okay
I’ve never been helpless
I’m not the baby
Anymore
 
Don’t worry
I don’t need saved
I’ve made it this far
On my own
 
I’m all right
I never asked for
Not your baby
All alone
 
Don’t worry
I’m okay
I was your baby
Not anymore

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Mess of Dreams

I stumbled onto you
A picture, no less
In fact there were three
 
Grinning in one
Head thrown back
Softness apparent
New to me
 
Black shades the next
Guitar aimed
Like an arrow
At her heart
 
But the last
The soul heavy tired eyes
I remember these
Even now
 
So old
For so young
A man
 
The one thing I never got
When I wrote this
The lines etch now
Just like yours
And I wonder why
I [...]

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Twist

“I’m doing this for you.”
                              –Last words of a sociopath

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Collected Perceptions

Now that you’ve taken everything
Tell me how does it feel to need more
Now that you’ve drank your fill
Tell me how does it feel to be bored
Now that you’ve spent all your time
How do you know you’re too late
Now when you empty your pockets
How do you sort your mistakes
 
So you put them on a shelf
Like you [...]

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Just a Kid

When you’re a teenager, you think you know everything. You also think you are indestructible.
I look at kids that age, and I see children. But once in a while, I see one who also reminds me of me. A certain squint in one eye, a stance, a way of breathing. Not willing to wait, be [...]

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Just Be

 
Today. Begin.
Everything
You’ve worked for
Imagined
Dreamt
Longed after
Mourned
 
Today. Now.
Whatever
You had pictured
Envisioned
Slept on
Chased after
Sorrowed for
 
This day. Stop.
Whoever
You’ve projected
Pretended
Posed as
Run from
Scorned
 
Today. Just live.
What are you still running from?
Waiting for?
This is not a test.
You will not be graded.
 
 Just be.

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The Why

There is no understanding “Why”.
Trying to comprehend, with a compassionate heart, the incomprehensible; the compassionless. It will make you crazy. 
All that needs understood is more stark and brutal than I like to be, but it is the truth still; there are people in the world who cannot be filled or satisfied. Ever. The closest they [...]

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Heartless

 
Darkness
Calling
Darkly, Hauntingly
Darkness falls on
Broken
Holes in me
Darkness, Heartless
Wanting
Let me in
Darkness, Darkness
Darkness
Let me be
 
Darkness
Taunts me
Tells me ugly
Things
Darkness
Speaks to
Remembered emptiness
Darkness
Whispers
Darkness
Screams
Heartless Darkness
Darkness
Never leaves
 
Darkness
Watching
Darkness
Always sees
Darkness
Falls on
Broken
Holes in me
Darkness, Heartless
Ever following
Darkness, Darkness
Always
Part of me

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Ruby Mountains

Ruby Mountains
Snowy Mountains
Lay your mantle on my back
When I’m leaving
Yes I’m leaving
Will you point me down the path
 
Ruby hold me
Tell me your sorrows
Drop your tears along the road
When I’m leaving
And I’m leaving
Light a candle for us both
 
Ruby Mountain
Ruby Snow
Keep your secrets from me still
When I’m leaving
You know I’m leaving
Keep what I have left you with

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