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One of the Shes

She’s got it so bad

She’s counting the seasons

She’ll take to be had

She’s one of the Shes

He’s leaving behind

He’s giving her notice

But taking his time

 

One of the Shes

She’s falling in stride

She’s counting her reasons

She’s standing in line

She’s one of the Shes

He’s taking her time

He’s giving her something

But stealing her pride

 

Who would have thought

It would be so effective

Who would have sought

To be so subjected

She’s under his spell

She’s taken it well

Who would have bought

She’d be so reflexive

 

One of the Shes

She’s got it just fine

She’s counting each vision

He puts in her mind

She’s one of the Shes

He’s leading behind

He’s feeding her something

She’s bleeding inside

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“I’m doing this for you.”

                              –Last words of a sociopath

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The Sickness continues. I follow every lead, probe every opening, chase every sign, smell or sound of its presence. Up all night, poring over images, stories, even pictures of old advertisements. And finally, I find a treasure trove of date- specific lore.

I cross-reference everything, for what ends I do not know. Just because…I suppose I just need to [I guess they don’t call it The Sickness for nothing]. And by 2:00 AM I learn my Fenton bowl is not called custard glass, but has a more specific name: Ivory Crest. It was introduced in 1940, and discontinued in 1942. There were many different pieces made in the Ivory Crest pattern, but because of the short duration, Ivory Crest is difficult to collect much of. Or as one collector put it—“frustrating”.

Well, despite my obsessive digging, I’m not feeling frustrated at all. While it might take me a long time, and I may find things the hard way [I don’t have collectors books handy], I still ended up knowing more than I could find out from those that know far more than me. So, I’m happy.

The fact that the bowl [I believe it would be a “Rose Bowl” to be exact] is at least 67 years old doesn’t hurt either. Feeling warm and fuzzy, I turn off the reading lamp and switch on the blacklight and stare into its bright green glow.

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The Sickness

Well, it’s official. The diagnosis is in, and there’s no use denying it.

It came from an expert.

“We call it ‘The Sickness’ ” she said, just like that. It was matter of fact, and I could tell she’d seen quite a bit of it.

She was a large woman, perched in a wheelchair, barely moving. At first I thought she had taken a dislike to me, because she didn’t turn her head to look at me when I asked my question. But then something happened.

I caught something, like a scent, and moved towards it. It nearly glowed, and I knew right away what I’d smelled. It was pretty enough to eat.

There it sat, my jewel. Or at least, sister to the one I had at home. A new acquisition I’d pondered for days before making it my own, though I’d known all along I would. I also knew it for a good buy at 15.00. But I’d had only my intuition going for me.

It’s called Custard Glass, and this one had a silver crest double crimped all along its lip. A beautiful Fenton bowl, circa 1950’s, unmarked. I nearly went blind when I saw it. More like tunnel vision really, because I could see the bowl, just nothing else.

Finally, I turned to her, with a question on my face. She told me all about it. I took another look at her, this unmoving person in the chair, her voice gaining animation and body, and then I saw; her eyes were sparkling and growing larger and wider; her being seemed to dart around me, dancing with her words. Showing off the bowls’ best side, telling its’ story, giving up its’ secrets. Relishing each word. And now laughing.

“Yeah, we call it ‘The Sickness’, and my friend, you have it.

There’s not much you can do about it. But if I can give you just one bit of advice, it’s this; collect what you love.”

 

Not that I was holding out for a second opinion, but later in the afternoon one came, unbidden, by someone equally astute at spotting these things. His wife took one look at me and started asking questions; “What do you like?”

I tried to downplay my interest, and especially my knowledge, what little I have amassed in my short run at learning. Their terrier walked over display cases and lay down near me, as if in sympathy, settling his chin on my arm. He’d seen a lot of shows. And a lot of Glass-Sick people, no doubt.

“You know quite a bit more than you think you do” the woman said. I knew better, but took the compliment. It’s all relative.

Collectors, I’m finding, are a different breed. Dealers are too, if they’re truly collectors at heart. They love to talk about their passion, and freely give helpful feedback on any and everything related to the subject at hand. There doesn’t seem to be a competitive flavor to these exchanges. It’s almost as though they overflow with the need to talk about what they know, and they don’t guard their knowledge.

She offered up several bits of information about my area of affliction, lifting a few mysteries for me. I was most grateful. And then her husband turned to me and said, “If there’s one really good piece of advice I can give you, it’s collect what you love.”

 

The market comes and goes. Things go in and out of vogue. The economy sucks, and peoples disposable incomes aren’t allowing for luxury items. “Glass”, is one of those items. The collection of choice suddenly becomes something that’s hot, and just as quickly and mysteriously, goes cold. Glass breaks, chips and cracks, and then is worthless. It takes up space, and as a collection item as opposed to a utilitarian one, it’s relatively useless except as a thing of beauty. Ebay has pretty much destroyed the value of collectable glass. People are financially desperate and virtually dumping collections of all kinds for cash, any cash. The value of collectables gets further driven down.

None of this bodes well for an aspiring collector short of funds.

 

My palms sweat as I look at a huge blue stretch glass vase over his shoulder. One that my new friends point out, you’d never put flowers in. I learn that vases are hard to sell. Both of these things strike me funny.

I move on and see Black Amethyst Depression glass, Fostoria American glass, Jadite pitchers and juicers, Purple Sun Glass lanterns and doorknobs by the dozens; all manner of Opaque and Milk Glass, Opalescent pieces, Carnival, pressed, blown, cut, etched, and by more names than I knew.

 

Everyone is closing up, covering their displays. I head for the front door and the lady at the desk reminds me to take my return pass “So I can come back tomorrow”. How did she know? And I drive home, thinking of my Custard Glass bowl. I picture its dimple, a production flaw. Its perfect imperfection, its individual beauty. Its globe like shape. Its color, which seems to morph depending on the light; now a creamy vanilla, now almost green. I learned today that it will indeed glow, or display phosphorescence, under black light. Like Vaseline glass, it was made with Uranium Dioxide.

And I think of how it came to me: a collector who would rather say, “Glass isn’t my expertise. I don’t know too much about this one, but here’s what’s probably true”, than try to tell you how much more he knows than you. Who’d rather just say “It’s a pretty good piece of glass; I’ll ask 15.00” than twist every dollar he can from your empty pocket when you have “The Sickness” and are struck blind by a piece of beautiful glass for the first time. And who’d be bothered to tell me to be careful, but most of all, to collect what I love.

I guess there’s no cure, and only one treatment.

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Now that you’ve taken everything

Tell me how does it feel to need more

Now that you’ve drank your fill

Tell me how does it feel to be bored

Now that you’ve spent all your time

How do you know you’re too late

Now when you empty your pockets

How do you sort your mistakes

 

So you put them on a shelf

Like you put me on a shelf

And you spend all your life in a haze

So you add to your collection

Of sideways perceptions

And you say she was just a phase

 

And you put me on a shelf

Like you put them on a shelf

And erase all those dreams in a blaze

So you add to your collection

Your toys of perception

You pretended to throw away

 

Now that you’ve taken everything

Tell me how does it feel in your soul

Now that you’ve stolen the best years

How does it feel to get old

Now that you’ve used up their lives

How will your ego be fed

Now when you see me watching

Who do you see in your head

 

You put me on a shelf

Like you put her on a shelf

Your relics lined up in a row

But you forget to mention

Her collected perceptions

Easily rival your own

 

So put her on a shelf

Like you put them on a shelf

And live out your life in a daze

Add to your collection

Your toys of perception

Each in her special place

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Run in the dark

Blood pumping

Legs pounding

Crashing

Breath and heart

In my ears

Waves sounding

On the shore

Shake me

Drowning out

All else but the fear of your

Insistence

 

Your hands

On me

Gripping pulling

Tightly

Your face voice yelling

Into mine

Sobbing sucking air screaming no

Until I collapse

Drowning fast

Under the weight of your

Persistence

 

Fists fingers feet bucking

Stuck in sand

You never falter

In the dance

Breath and heart and legs

Pound

I am the prey of chance

Taken down

Shaken to

Drowning

In the wake of my

Resistance

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I saw you on the inside

From where I used to live

I saw you where you hide

From my perfect fit

I saw the secrets in your heart

The ones you’re loath to show

I always saw most everything

You didn’t let me know

 

I kept the faith we both did pledge

I never gave a clue

From way back then I always knew

I could see right through

I gave you every chance there is

To just be something more

I watched you when you made your choice

To take the lowest road

 

You saw me on the inside

From where you used to live

You saw me where I cried

Nothing left to fit

You saw the secrets of my heart

The ones you loathed to hold

You always wanted everything

I didn’t let you know

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“Being an intellectual creates a lot of questions and no answers. You can fill your life up with ideas and still go home lonely. All you really have that really matters are feelings. That’s what music is to me.”

–Janis Joplin

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